I'm sitting in my room getting high now. Doors locked, music up with his lights out. I just take another take until his room gets full of smoke. 5-6-7 hours till he knocks out. Now I started stealing pills from my mom 8-9-10 at a time and they’re gone and maybe for the moment all my problems seem to fade, but the high fades too after not too long and that’s when it sinks in that these drugs won’t fix me curled up on the floor, can’t take it anymore. Now I'm talking to god because he’s the only one who gets me. On my knees, looking up, can’t stop crying. “God I know we haven’t talked in a long time, but this time I really need you right now, please god help me, say something. Just give me a sign, because now I'm falling apart and I don't think that I can do it. Please god, give me the strength to pull through it. …show more content…
I could end it right now. I just don’t know if I'm brave enough to do it. Cause there has to be a better way than suicide. I tried to wait it out, give it time, and told myself you’ll be fine, but it has been so long and I still haven’t been able to get rid of all the thoughts that I feel inside. So sick, so angry, so mad and to top it off no one even knows that. That’s when I stood up and wiped my tears and walked over to my desk got a pen and a notepad. I just couldn’t see it get any better. So a cold dark night in December, I knew exactly what I had to do, but first I sat down and wrote a couple letters. One to my dad, one to my mother, couple of kids at school, one to his brother. Bringing the pain that they once brought him, tear drops on the paper one after another. I hope that you all feel guilty. Cause i’m broken now and you can’t help me and now you’re all an accomplice in murder. Each and every one of you has chipped in to kill me. So, the reason why i’m writing to you this evening is to say goodbye and to tell you that i’m leaving, but don’t hold your breath cause i’m not coming back sincerely yours,
Markus Zusak’s, The Messenger features the protagonist Ed Kennedy, and how he completed each mission of aces; diamonds, clubs, spades and hearts. The suit of spades was symbolic to Ed’s overall mission as Ed had to dig through truths about himself. Before the suit of spades Ed’s thought of himself was that he was worth nothing, evident through the narration of Ed’s monologue. The suit of spades saw Ed wanting more for his life, evident through the characterisation of Ed, the changes in his monologue.
I never forced her to dress overly professional, never said she had to wear a dress suit
This is similar to mine, but without the part that prevents you from being able to change back. It's a simple seal you can undo on your own.
The song I chose was “I’m Sorry” by the artist Joyner Lucas. This song has a pretty deep meaning to me. It’s about a man who commits suicide. Last year around Christmas time I met this guy. He was a friend of a close family member of mine. He was always hanging around them so naturally we started talking. I’m the type of person who cares about people a little too much. I started noticing that he got more quiet and more to himself. I never thought he wanted to hurt himself. I trusted him and he knew he could trust me too. Things at home weren’t good. He was hurting. No kid should ever go through that (he is my age).
Whoever said, "War was hell," must have read Ernest Hemingway 's A Farewell to Arms. It is a decade defining controversial piece of American Literature. It was not only controversial because Hemingway was a depressed drunkard, but it was controversial because it doesn 't glorify war; it shows the brunt reality of the Great War. He provides the evidence of his depression through his writings by allowing his characters to be placed in horrid situations. He also shows his alcoholism this way, by allowing his characters to be alcoholics. For example, in A Farewell to Arms, Frederic Henry used alcohol to get over his pain, which would eventually lead to Henry 's jaundice, a lack of liver function, which is a symptom of cirrhosis of the liver,
I received the handoff I bounce the play to the outside, I’m sprinting down the sideline and
Well nothing that important happened today, but tomorrow there's going to be a lot of commotion. Tomorrow I have try-outs, my sisters are turning a year older, and then I have to participate in the making of my little sisters humongous cupcake. Miyah is turning 1 year old so excited, and Kala is turning 13 years old. Then I have basketball try-outs, sadly there's going to be 2 different teams. I think there should only be one, but there are a lot of kids trying out. Only the best should make it honestly. The good thing about it is, I know I'm going to make it so it will be like an early practice. Then the day after Wednesday is volleyball try-outs and I know I'm going to make one of the teams, because Ms.Mueller is forcing me to try-out. Well
Hey Joe: April 10th, 2016: This can't be my life, it just can't be , I need help but, where and from who. I got down on my knees and asked God to guide me and help me on this journey. I knew to get on my knees and ask God to have mercy and guidance. Joe that is all I am asking God for today. I got up and went to the closet the one thing about me was that I like to dress and I needed to pick out the best outfits I only needed three the colors blue, brown and white. I picked up my laptop and keyed in Indeed job search for Addiction Counselor in Lancaster and Palmdale Ca. I clicked a job for Palmdale and Santa Clarita and sent off my resume closed the laptop and went to talk with that old fat woman in the mirror. I said "hello" it was nice knowing
So much has happened Nick, I don’t even know where to begin. It feels like everything has gone sour. And I’ve tried to be better, that’s the honest to God truth, I’ve tried. But it seems like some higher power just has it out for me or something. Nicky, I need your help. I’ve got myself into a pretty terrible situation and I don’t know anyone who can get me out. Besides you, of course. But I’m afraid you won’t comprehend the urgency of my situation. I promise you, I wouldn’t have contacted you if my predicament were any less difficult.
I woke up again, screaming and crying. My heart aching and my body shaking. I did not know what else to do. When was this mental distress going to stop? Two months have passed since I discovered who Theodore Adams was: a dead man tormenting his psychotic father through innocent women. I being one of his victims. I shake the thought out of my head and, while my heart was still racing and my hands trembling, I decided to call my closest friend. She might not be able to help me get rid of my anguish, but at least she will listen and comfort me for a while. I dial her number in my phone and wait for her to respond.
Characteristically speaking the speech in only 15 lines embodies Lady Macbeth’s intentions, thoughts, personality and power. By showing her change from a woman and wife to her genderless idea of power; the transformation gives her most inner thoughts a way into the world. It is unsurprising for this to come from her, as it is at the very beginning of her appearance within the play. The speech stands as a foundation to her character. Any idea of who she is can be made from these lines and her future acts are foreshadowed to. Her spell of sorts is not only one that she hopes will help her husband and make the prophecy come true but also a speech to herself. The words she speaks are meant for her own ears. She must persuade herself she is
So I guess you are leaving I know your heart seen better times I have made a lot of mistakes I understand if you need your space Please take your time Before you leave my life and go away
I couldn’t hear the yelling on the street anymore, but the stomping on the stairs began again, it was like for every stomp I heard, I lost a breath and I was beginning to drown again. For some odd reason, I thought I could make this other person that I had grown up with calm down. I went out my room, “Adriel, I love you. Please just leave and calm down.” Every word I said seemed to slip between his ears. Instead, he went straight into his room going through every drawer, I knew exactly what he was looking for, another high so he could feel normal, or just to get out of his mind. I locked myself in my room knowing if I saw anymore, I would want to call the cops on my own
A Telephone Call by Dorothy Parker is an intriguing inner monologue, that portrays the infatuation some partners have with their significant other. I personally found the story to be rather compelling, constantly engaging the readers with Parker’s use of repetition. Although it definitely isn't my favorite story, it had an abundance of interesting aspects.
India is a vast country with rich and varied heritage. In this unique country live followers of several religions, such as Hinduism, Islam, Christianity, Jainism, Buddhism, Zoroastrianism and Sikhism.