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Tele Give Up Monologue

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I'm sitting in my room getting high now. Doors locked, music up with his lights out. I just take another take until his room gets full of smoke. 5-6-7 hours till he knocks out. Now I started stealing pills from my mom 8-9-10 at a time and they’re gone and maybe for the moment all my problems seem to fade, but the high fades too after not too long and that’s when it sinks in that these drugs won’t fix me curled up on the floor, can’t take it anymore. Now I'm talking to god because he’s the only one who gets me. On my knees, looking up, can’t stop crying. “God I know we haven’t talked in a long time, but this time I really need you right now, please god help me, say something. Just give me a sign, because now I'm falling apart and I don't think that I can do it. Please god, give me the strength to pull through it. …show more content…

I could end it right now. I just don’t know if I'm brave enough to do it. Cause there has to be a better way than suicide. I tried to wait it out, give it time, and told myself you’ll be fine, but it has been so long and I still haven’t been able to get rid of all the thoughts that I feel inside. So sick, so angry, so mad and to top it off no one even knows that. That’s when I stood up and wiped my tears and walked over to my desk got a pen and a notepad. I just couldn’t see it get any better. So a cold dark night in December, I knew exactly what I had to do, but first I sat down and wrote a couple letters. One to my dad, one to my mother, couple of kids at school, one to his brother. Bringing the pain that they once brought him, tear drops on the paper one after another. I hope that you all feel guilty. Cause i’m broken now and you can’t help me and now you’re all an accomplice in murder. Each and every one of you has chipped in to kill me. So, the reason why i’m writing to you this evening is to say goodbye and to tell you that i’m leaving, but don’t hold your breath cause i’m not coming back sincerely yours,

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