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Personal Reflection

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I felt like i lost my identity. My goals, My sense of self and my struggles all started when I wanted to become an orientation leader for UWB in 2016, having passed the written and group interview phase; I had a goal to leave no student feel like they were excluded, I was thrilled that I was getting so close to be able showcase my commitment to new incoming students while providing genuine care. The day of my individual interview struck me, I nervously walked in that day with an unfortunate outbreak of eczema. Embarrassed, I looked away while talking, pouring my heart into my words but not using my brain. A few days later i got a letter saying I didn’t get the job. My inexperience, shyness, lack of confidence always followed me, reminding me that i was a disappointment. After many failed attempts to get a job due to my lack of experience, the stability of my life started deteriorating. In the winter of 2016 my girlfriend cheated on me, I forgave her only to be cheated on again. Close family members passed away while having friends end their lives too short. I didn’t have anyone to talk about my problems and my parents always expected me to be the perfect student. I was overwhelmed with pressure, grief, disappointment, and anger. I skipped classes thinking that there was no point and my grades were plummeting, my motivations and self-interest all seemed to slip away Sulked into my own depression built around the success of others I could only cry. From then on after

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