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Personal Narrative: What Difference Would It Make?

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Racing thoughts encircling in tangled ways always led me back to one question, “What difference would it make?” Throughout 3 years, I was never able to figure it out until my whole life shifted. However, I always believed in the simple fact that everything happens for a reason. Meaning that every decision I’d make was destined for me to get something out of it, either learning from my mistakes, bettering myself, or recognizing my bad habits. My first bump took place in high school; I had just started my freshman year foolishly reckless. Add what happened. As unreal as it felt, I hurt those around me by letting them down. I was careless though. Emotionless about what had just happened. The thing was, I didn’t matter to myself; in my mind, I was unimportant, which is why I was interned into a facility for my own health. The two weeks I was there were pointless since I didn’t acknowledge my mistake. Leaving the negative outcomes aside, there was one positive outcome that I imagine wouldn’t have happened. I got enrolled into DAEP (Disciplinary Alternative Education Program) and due to their school requirements, I was put into art. Not only did I find …show more content…

I’d say how pointless it was to even try because “it’d make no “difference.” But it did. Mattering to oneself is the most powerful thing in the world. One is not able to care 100% about anything, if they don’t find themselves important enough to be worth it. Within a year of clarity and lonesomeness, I was able to learn how to fully loving myself. This achievement impacted me in different aspects like earning self-confidence, and completely restrained from self harm. I now know how terribly senseless I was back then. However, I wound up adjusting just fine in the end, as an improved, desireable me. Overcoming my struggles wasn’t the real accomplishment, it was how I refused to back down from

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