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Audre Lorde's Analysis

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Audre Lorde, author of the autobiography The Cancer Journals, reiterates her experience of having breast cancer and her decision to have a mastectomy through a series of journal entries. Throughout these entries, she expresses a range of emotions all across the board. This is not just to describe her battle with breast cancer, but to also highlight how her various identities intersect with her experience. Lorde looks to her journal to channel her fear of breast cancer in order to power through the experience as a black lesbian feminist. She writes not only to help herself cope, but also to help the thousands of women battling breast cancer who share those same fears along with her. Right in her introduction, Lorde clearly states her reason …show more content…

Her journal entries are very honest, open, and raw, just like Lorde herself as she traverses through her war with breast cancer. She is not afraid to admit that she is very scared of having a mastectomy and the very real possibility that the cancer may still kill her as she should be (Lorde 15). But instead of dwelling on this fear, writing allows her to “live beyond fear by living through it, and in the process learn to turn fury at [her] own limitations into some more creative energy” (Lorde 15). Whatever hardship that breast cancer may throw at her, Lorde is prepared to power through it. Her frustration in being helpless to pause her illness could be channeled and controlled rather than have it wallow there in the silence that Lorde so despises. Going off of her previous quote, she explains in a later entry that she is “often afraid to this day [February 20, 1979], but even more so angry at having to be afraid, of having to spend so much of my energies . . . upon fear and worry” (Lorde 54). Lorde is a woman of action, and the paralyzing effect of fear makes her feel increasingly angry and helpless. Lorde’s solution is not to “turn away from the fear,” but instead embrace it and “use it as fuel” to enunciate her own experience (Lorde …show more content…

She does not only want to write about “cancer as it affects [her] life and [her] consciousness as a woman,” but also as a “a black lesbian feminist mother lover poet all I am” (Lorde 25). As a post-mastectomy black lesbian feminist, Lorde is quite the minority. On pages 42 to 44, Lorde is confronted by a straight white woman from Reach for Recovery, who tries to hit all the right points for Lorde to feel comforted, but misses them all. The woman assures Lorde that men will still find her attractive, and that she will not be able to tell the difference between the “grotesquely pale” prosthesis and her own breast (Lorde 44). However, Lorde does not have a husband, and the pale prosthetic does not match her dark skin, all of which she states in her journal. In addition, she has more concerns than the prosthetic itself. She also lists all of her fears in regards to how her partner will view her post-mastectomy body (Lorde 43). The questions that Lorde poses are extremely personal and cannot be said out loud to just anyone. These are the fears that she reserves for her journal. I think it’s important that Lorde includes them here and nowhere else (of which the reader is aware) is that her most personal questions are saved in writing. I think her journals allow Lorde to express herself freely without the worry of

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