My First Night Was A Dream

I was woken up with mom at the foot of my bed saying “Wake up sweetheart wake up” it is a beautiful day in Canada witch is where I live. As I get the gunk out of my eyes so I could so my mother clearly and I ask her what was wrong because she had never woke me up at 5:45 in the morning with out it being bad or something happened to the family. I got scared and my father, sister, and brother came into my room and was saying.“Calm down your going to be okay just pack your clothes,some of your personal items,and some food NOT caned food". Next I was getting ready and Carter my brother came into my room witch he had never done and told me him and dad would protect Kelsey, mom, and myself. As I walked into the kitchen we all picked different kinds of food and water. We started walking out the door and I said "Wait I need my picture of all my friends so i would remember them"so I went and got it.

It is seven thirty in the morning. I am walking down the hallway after arriving at school. I turn the corner and my best friend Heidi starts running at me with tears in her eyes, and a very pale complexion. I immediately know something is wrong. She then proceeds to tell me that she woke up this morning and her mom did not come home from work last night, and the police were now looking for her. Two hours later she was called down to the office with life shattering news. I was called down to the Principal's office an hour after Heidi was, discovering the news that the mother of my lifelong

School was the same as yesterday, full of zoning out. When I got home from school I ran into my room and threw myself onto my bed. I laid there for a good ten minutes or so. I was scared to death, but at the same time I was so excited. I knew I would make it, but I was still terrified though. The fact that I was in the first group to go made me a lot more nervous. In a way it’s a good thing so I wouldn’t have to think about it and get more nervous than I already was. Once I had got ready I laid right back on my bed. I’m not sure why I was so tired, but I clearly was. If my mom wouldn’t have called me I would’ve been dead

I was panicking I didn’t know what I did I thought I was in some kind of trouble, but when I got to the principal’s office, there were 2-3 police officers there waiting for me. They sat me down with a concerned look and told me some terrible news. These few words that I could never get out of my head. It’s as if there locked in a prison. They told me that my father was in an accident at first I thought that they were just talking about a car accident. I had no idea what to expect. Then they told me that my father had passed away I started balling my eyes out I didn’t know what to do. They soon drove me back to my house where I saw my brother and a few neighbors and friends. There were a few cop cars and an ambulance. I later found out that he had committed suicide. My aunt and uncle came and picked us up from my house and brought us to their house where they tried to cheer us up a bit it was my cousins birthday so we tried to have a

I walked away feeling like I was a complete failure and that I didn’t deserve to go on. On the way home my mother tried to talk to me, but, I put on my headphones and cried silently. Once we were home my father asked how it went. The tears that were in my eyes and they became more evident as my shoulders and chest were shaking and trembling. The only sound in the room was the sound of me crying and wailing. I started crumbling and falling to the ground and my mother and father rushed to my side. They held me until the tears came to a stop and a little bit afterwards

My father said “Samuel, you awake?”, I thought the best option was to not reply so I can insinuate that I was sound asleep. But then he did it repeatedly with the knocks getting louder and louder like gunshots, the best option was to reply in a tired tone so I would not make him worried and think something tragic happened if I was not replying. He told me “Samuel get ready we’re leaving in about an hour and a half”. He said it in such a joyful tone since we were going to get grandma. I started to feel regret in my decision, I would feel terrible if he knew I was going to delay us going on the plane flight. But then I remembered the whole reason I was doing this in the first place, my fear took over me and that feeling of regret went away in a flash. I told my dad “I'M NOT GOING!” I must have woken up every living member of that house because one of my Spiderman action figures fell off the shelf when I made that proclamation. My dad sounded so angry when I spoke those words, his footsteps were loud walking to his room. All i could hear is my dad shuffling through his things and stuff falling, he ran towards my room yelling “WHERE IS THE KEY!”. I was scared of my father at that point, i had the key in my hand but i was shaking so much that i dropped the key and i could tell that my father knew I had it in my possession. He started yelling at me through the door telling me that this flight was very

My mother, my best friend, had many different opinions than I did and arguing between us never seemed to get resolved. I spill my secrets, give her an update on my school grades, and move on but today it was different. The testing schedule has caused me to be exhausted and testing in my least favorite class does not make it any better. Fast-paced, I arrived from what seemed to be a year long school day and I was not in the mood for our usual discussion. I walked into the house with my head down, music deteriorating my eardrums, and I ignored everything around me allowing my mind to go blank.

I remember it as if it happened yesterday. The strange sound of my mom's phone was loud and alarming. I decided to ignore it and go back to sleep. Soon after I went back to sleep, my mom came in my room. I sat up in my bed with my eyes half opened, and I remember the puzzled look on her face. It was frightening like if she had just been told something unexpected and upsetting. And at that exact moment, I knew exactly what she was going to say, and I froze in fear. She sat next to me and nervously mumbled ¨Your grandma passed away¨. I didn't know what to do and I didn't want to believe it. The exact same four words kept repeating over and over in my head and I felt like the whole world was spinning. Without even realizing, I then found myself bawling my eyes out. I had so many mixed emotions. I was heartbroken, I was angry and I was upset. My mom told me to get dressed since we were going to the hospital but I refused to go. I was upset and all I wanted to do was to be alone. My mom then left after having a talk with me about my grandma. I started to feel better and I was starting to accept that things happen for a reason, but it also started to feel like there was a huge hole in my

As we walked in it was only a week before I would have to go to this school every day for a year. We went into the counselor office and everyone knew my mother but they didn’t know me and I felt the expectations of being her daughter fall onto my shoulders. The counselor Mrs. Avery started talking at what seemed like a hundred miles an hour throwing out what my options were but not giving me a lot of time to process. I started to relax though because my mother had always made the decisions and she usually chose the right one in my opinion. But then my worst nightmare in that situation happened my mom turned to me and asked me what did I want to do and that it was my choice. I had to make a decision I had about a minute to realize what would be best for me and what I was going to have to choose. I realized right then how much power choice had I realized I had to choose what I wanted and what would be the best thing for me. Mrs. Avery and my mother looked at me I realized I need to make a decision as they looked at me I decided I would become a Freshman and take all the honor class I could. As I sat there the process of high school just beginning I thought about all of my fear and doubts about my abilities but I also knew that I would fight for the grade I wanted and I would do the very best I could. As my thoughts ran through my head and I chose

It was just another regular Tuesday morning; the sun was out shinning bright, wind howling, birds singing it was just simply a beautiful day. I was excited to find out my graduation was less than 6 months away. I’d always drive to school as soon as I had my car and was able to start driving. Just like another regular day at Haines City High School I went to all my classes which were just four daily. Thought out the day I was in a bad mood, not because something happened but for the reason that I was not able to sleep all through the night. I woke up moody and not in the mood for school I was driving sleepy which I should not have been doing in the first place. As soon as the bell rang for lunch which also meant if you had a car you could leaving during lunch, I left still sleepy; as I’m driving down the street there is construction so I stopped as the stop sign. When I look I started to drive off when all the sudden I hear a beeping and I look and it was too late. The women hit me head on, I was so mad at angry, nervous that I did not

I got out of my house so I could drive to work and then I remembered that I left my car at school, I sat in my house and missed work, I did not even call in. I woke up the next morning in my dream and got ready for school and when I went to warm up my car, it still was not there because it was still at school. I called Rylee because I needed a ride to school but she did not

I thought that I could make new friends, but that year was most likely the worst of all years of my educational life. My friend Jayme left to another school, so we rarely talked. My mother married, and that was a very big step for me. I had to move Homes and live with my step-father and his mother. I felt like life became an endless abyss. My parents argued, threatening to divorce each other. because of financial issues and residence issues. I had alot of stress at school. I was also very lonely because I had no friends. Then one day, my mother was yelling at me because she thought that I didnt study enough for a test. She called me unpleasant names and told me to get out of the car. When I arrived to my english class, I broke down crying. The teacher decident to send em to the office, and then they called the school phsychologist. Talkig to the phsychologist felt like a releif. I finaly release all the feelings that a had been holing back for a very long time. While telling her everything, i told her that had two previous suicide attempts beforehand to get away fromm all of the arguements, lonelyness and th fact that i thought that my parents hated me. After hearing all of what i had to say, she decided to call a PET team to evaluate me. They would decide if i should be sent to a mental hospital so i wouldnt try to harm myself that night. The ended up sendimg me to the hopitital for about three weeks, and diagnosed me with major drepressive dissorder and

comes back full force. My straight A’s start to drop to D’s and E’s, I quit all my after-school activities, stopped talking to everyone, and started to skip school almost everyday. I had always struggled with depression, but it had never been this bad before, I felt like I was drowning and she was pulling me down with her. I struggled a lot with my depression, I had to go to the emergency room twice during the school year for suicide attempts, I just wanted to give up on everything. During this time things kept getting worse and worse, tension kept on building between my mom and me and I still hadn't seen my dad. I remember that night so clearly as if it was yesterday. My mom and I had been arguing all day, We were in my room and kept on arguing

Anyways, school didn’t mean much to me the only thing I could think about how excited I was because I have waited for this day for I don’t even know how long. School goes by in a flash and then we head to the library for Mrs.Cornek’s 7th period social studies class and just about 15 minutes into the class I see my mom but I didn’t think that it was her at first. At first I didn’t even realize her but I then figured it out after she was waving her hands up and down and screaming SAMMY J in front of all my friends and embarrassing me. I begin to wonder why she was here but not for long because I then hear the loudspeaker go off about 30 seconds after she arrived and it announces “ Can we have Sam Josselyn to the office prepared to leave.” All of my friend begin to ask me where am I going but I didn’t have an answer I had no idea. I rush out of the classroom excited I get to leave because it was a snore fest and I was so ready to leave the second I got there. I immediately run up to her and give her a hug and thank her for saving me. As we are walking to the car I ask her where are we going and she said we are going to get your nails done, get your hair done, get your makeup done, and your eyebrows. I don’t say anything not even a thank you just a really big excited smile that I only have gotten when I was 7 and got the American girl doll that I

In my case today I got lost in this weird idea that I deserve to die because anyone else in this situation today would actually be doing things but here I am being a dope fuck me I want a bullet between my brain. It’s stupid, but I know so many other people who have gone through similar shit. It’s so strange that the human mind loves to latch on to these temporary things like a bad grade, getting fired, or whatever shitty temporary thing might happen and make it seem as if it’s going to be this way for the next however many years, but you know what it does… and it sucks.