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It Is Not A Problem For Not Thinking

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This week, I was reminded that it is not a problem for not thinking like a person next to me. It is always hard and complicated to get a place in the new environment because all that surrounds you make you feel like an outsider. This week, I took 2 exams and 1 quiz; I am not happy at all about my performance. More I think on how I study for my classes, more I run out of good explanations on why I am not doing well. Maybe I need to change how I do things to see if the results also change? Maybe I need to understand that it is normal that I can always do my best, even though I don’t reach the level of grasping the whole materials like my peers; who happens to be mostly natives. This feeling is frustrating, and it becomes worse because I know that failing isn’t an option for me. Unlike Barbie, I don’t fit in many identities, and I think I can’t even fit easily because I tend to know which environment I am trying to blend in. I am not sure that these are strengths or weakness in handling the whole cultural experience, and I am afraid that being an outsider holds me back. Due to the fact even nonverbal used in both cultures are not really same, it hinders my intercultural communication. I remember when I came to United States for the first time in august 2013, many things got my attention one thing in particular though was the smile on people’s faces (I call it fake smile). In my culture, I can be polite and greet you if we cross each in hall way, in the stairs, if we meet in

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