Many believe self consciousness refers to how they can alter their image in the eyes of others, but to me self consciousness is understanding oneself, knowing your purpose in life, acknowledging your existence amongst others, as well as actions and decisions that have led you to this moment. In my opinion, definition of oneself has a lot to do with how you see yourself as an individual. In most cases one’s self image is greatly influenced by others, and or what they are taught to believe about themselves. What it means to define oneself is to pinpoint what makes you who you are as an individual with more reference to your mentality, emotions, attitude, intrinsic motivation, rather than physical appearance, and or social induced characterization. Who Are You Individually? In Zora Neale Hurston's "How It Feels to Be Colored Me" she defines herself outside of the color inspecting world she lives in. "I left Eatonville, the town of oleanders, as Zora" (659) She acknowledges her existence as the individual she is rather then as just a colored woman. Her message to her audience is that she is not her color, neither does she associate herself with all the negative feelings that come with her race, she clearly emphasizes she is more than …show more content…
Similarly Hurston suggests this by saying "But in the main, I feel like a brown bag of miscellany propped against a wall"(662) "pour the contents, and there is discovered a jumble of small things priceless and worth-less" (662). When you look at a brown bag you can only make out its color and shape you'll only know what you see until you look inside it and you may find something valuable. In her case she is saying in order to really know her you should look deeper and you'll find the quality within her. She is able to clearly define herself in that she is telling us she runs deeper than her
The composition begins with Hurston describing her life as a child in the exclusively colored town of Eatonville, Florida where she enjoyed sitting on the front porch and saying friendly hellos to the white passer-bys. When she was thirteen, her mother died and she was sent to a boarding school Jacksonville, this is when she realized she was “a little colored girl”. Though she
Hurston stays who she is, no matter what people might think of her. In her non-fiction text she especially manages to convey this by using Humor, that creates Ethos within the text. The first words of “How It Feels to Be Colored Me” include “I am the only Negro in the Unites States whose grandfather on the mother’s side was not an Indian chief”, in which Hurston makes fun of all the Afro-Americans at the time who were trying to claim Native American heritage. This start into the text creates a lighthearted atmosphere, in which the author acknowledges her less than perfect living circumstances, but showing that she will not crumple beneath them. Before being sent to a racially mixed boarding school in Jacksonville, Zora Hurston lived in a town in Florida. She always welcomed white tourists looking at their town and states that she was “the first welcome-to-our state Floridian”, hoping “the Miami Chamber of Commerce will please take notice”. Of course, at the time, it was impossible to involve the government in a personal wit, so the author uses the sarcastic information to show the reader that she would live her life no matter what the social norms might have been in the 1920s. In the second half of her text, Hurston includes the Irony “How can any deny themselves the pleasure of my company? It’s beyond me”, showing that she knows that some people would view her as being socially unacceptable, however Hurston does not care, as long as she can stay true to her own character. Through the humorous tone created, the reader acknowledges that Hurston is light hearted and sympathizes with her
Even though both Hurston and Hughes grew up around the same time period, they had very different ideals regarding their experience as African American’s as well as a different voice used within their works to convey their ideals. Hurston in her 1928 essay “How it Feels to be Colored Me” describes her childhood and coming of age with a delightful zest that cannot be contained. Although the essay does contain some dark moments such as when she describes her experience with her friend at the jazz club and the sudden realization of the racial difference between her and the other patrons, for the most part the work exudes her keen sense of dignity despite the popular opinion of the masses during that period. Lines in her essay such as “But I am not tragically colored. There is no great sorrow dammed up in my soul, nor lurking behind my eyes…I do not belong to the sobbing school of Negrohood who hold that nature somehow has given them a lowdown dirty deal and whose feelings are all hurt about it” (Abcarian, Klotz, and Cohen 812) beautifully express her sense of self dignity and refusal to give in to the negative energies surrounding her race. Despite the many hardships that the color of her skin caused her she was proud and determined to never let that stand in her way of
By dividing the essay into four parts, you get to see different aspects or phases of her life and how she sees things differently than her friends, family, and colleagues. In the first section Zora states “white people differed from colored to me only in that they rode through town and never lived there” (Hurston 145). In her preteenager years, she was not subject to the negative aspects of being black in the south in the early twentieth century. This was mostly due to living in an all-black town, and not seeing any interactions between the races. By being one of the few people, if not the only person to talk to these outsiders, it put her in a unique position, and placed the whites passing through town off guard. Both Zora and the white tourist were drawn to each other out of curiosity. She sees that others don’t interact with the foreigners the way she does, but it does not stop her from continuing to interact with her brief guests. She is rewarded by the whites with coin, but the “colored people gave no dimes” (Hurston 145).
One of Hurston’s stories, How it Feels to Be Colored Me, reflects the author’s perspective of the colored race (specifically herself). According to the story, when Hurston reached the age of thirteen, she truly “became colored” (1040). The protagonist was raised in Eatonville, Florida, which was mainly inhabited by the colored race. She noted no difference between herself and the white community except that they never lived in her hometown. Nevertheless, upon leaving Eatonville, the protagonist began losing her identity as “Zora,” instead, she was recognized as only being “a little colored girl” (1041). Hurston’s nickname “Zora” represents her individuality and significance; whereas, the name “a little colored girl” was created by a white society to belittle her race and gender (1041).
I am not tragically colored. There is no great sorrow dammed up in my soul, nor lurking behind my eyes. I do not mind at all. I do not belong to the sobbing school of Negrohood who hold that nature somehow has given them a lowdown dirty deal and whose feelings are all hurt about….No, I do not weep at the world—I am too busy sharpening my oyster knife (“How it Feels to Be Colored Me”153).
In fact, this essay can be called an autobiographical in the sense that Hurston shared the experience and, what is more important is the identity of the main character in this story. If there is a need to describe the plot of the essay in several words, it would be “The discovery of identity and self-pride of being a colored girl.” It is a story about learning diversities and the process of understanding being different - in
How It Feels to be Colored Me is an essay by Zora Neale Hurston published in the World Tomorrow on May 1928. In the essay she describes her first experience with racism. The purpose of the piece is to show self-confidents and pride in her identity. She shows the reader the positives of embracing your identity and not letting society affect your true selves. Stating “I’m not ashamed to be colored.” (pg.416), meaning that no matter what anyone saying about her being black, she still has pride in herself.
At time she states she feels that she simple doesn’t have a race and is merely herself. “I have no separate feeling about being an American citizen and colored” (Hurston, vol. 2, pp. 360). At the end of the short story she uses a metaphor: “I feel like a brown bag of miscellany propped against a wall. Against a wall in company with other bags, white, red and yellow. Pour out the contents, and there is discovered a jumble of
"How it Feels to be Colored Me" was written in 1928. Zora, growing up in an all-black town, began to take note of the differences between blacks and whites at about the age of thirteen. The only white people she was exposed to were those passing through her town of Eatonville, Florida, many times going to or coming from Orlando. The primary focus of "How it Feels to be Colored Me" is the relationship and differences between blacks and whites.
In the all black community of Eatonville, Zora felt like members of her town saw her for who she was. There were no racial barriers in the community because of everyone’s shared culture, and history. Growing up in her small community, she came to love it and she felt a strong tie to her hometown. She illustrates this by saying, “But I was their Zora nevertheless. I belonged to them, to the nearby hotels, to the county—everybody’s Zora” (Hurston 42). Zora argues that because everyone was of the same color, the community could see past racial labels. A “black Zora” could not exist in Eatonville, and it was not an indicator of who she was because describing Zora as “black” in Eatonville does not do her identity justice. Zora could be Zora, because she felt no race, because she was so comfortable in her skin she could be a part of a community of people. In Eatonville, she did not see people because of racial labels, she had no knowledge of the stereotypes associated with black people. Because of her ignorance, Zora looked deep into people’s character as a young girl.
Purpose- Hurston’s purpose is to demonstrate that she is proud of her color. She does not need the bragging rights of having Native American ancestry, nor does she ‘belong to the sobbing school of Negrohood who hold that nature somehow has given them a lowdown dirty deal and whose feelings are all hurt about it.’
Hurston, on the other hand, lived in a town where only blacks lived until she was thirteen years old. Therefore, she only knew the “black” self. There was no second identity to contend with. She states that “white people differed from colored to me only in that they rode through town and never lived there.”2 She does not feel anger when she is discriminated against. She only wonders how anyone can not want to be in her company. She “has no separate feeling about being an American citizen and colored” (Hurston 1712).
In very earlier research, the theory developed by Wicklund (1975, 1978, 1979) defines self-awareness mostly as one’s ability to self-observe. That person will base on certain standard or new information to judge his own behavior (as cited in
What is a self? Is A considered a self? To answer whether A is human we must first define what a self is. Each individual experiences and reacts to life and situations differently, and collectively, we do not have anything within us that is black and white, so that would lead to the conclusion that self cannot be explicitly defined. However, at the same time, that complexity in itself is a definition; the fact that we exist as gray areas ultimately proves that we are a living contradiction. So a self is really your own perception of yourself, but because it is so inextricably intertwined with others perceptions and because all interaction is involved with others in some shape or form, self is more so a conglomeration of perceptions, values, choices, and your experiences.