Nick Smith
English 4A
Mr. Farrington
May 3, 2017
At What Cost
"This one wasn’t by accident. Look at these bruises, the attacker was angry."
I looked at Sean, the man I had worked with for over ten years. His face was showing its age, losing its youth and having it replaced with wrinkles and freckles. I wanted to tell him the truth but I knew what a burden it was to bear.
"Sean, this was my niece’s best friend. I owe to her parents, to look deeply into this case." He didn’t notice an unusual interest. I mean, at least, I think he didn’t.
"Did she have a boyfriend?" Sean asked. He had gone straight where I wanted him to.
"No, but my sister tells me she’s constantly being asked out and always turns them down. That gives us lots of
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It could have only been Sean but why the secrecy? At first, I thought of going back up there but I knew it would show my insecurity. I was probably being paranoid anyway, and if I wasn’t, why would I want to head straight towards obvious trouble?
I got home and my niece wouldn’t look at me. She locked herself in her room and cried for hours. I could hear her through the walls like a ghost wailing at her murderer. As I lay in bed with my sister sleeping in the room adjacent to me, I thought of how my niece must feel. I knew that she knew. It was all for the best though. I had to keep telling myself.
Next morning, I followed my every day routine. I wanted it to seem as if everything was normal. Which in fact, it surprisingly was. I always wondered how murderers must feel knowing what they’d done. As a cop I had met hundreds and I could never understand how they could live themselves. Now I know the secret to it. Nobody is willing to admit how easy it is to kill another human being. In books and movies, I would read about people’s conscience and how it would tear them apart. Maybe to some it did, but there are angers and fears that can overcome our conscience. As Jeffrey Dahmer, the famous American murderer once said, “Yes, I do have remorse, but I’m not even sure myself whether it is as profound as it should be. I’ve always wondered myself why I don’t feel more remorse.”
When I walked into the office that morning I found Sean there biting his nails. "I see you 've
CM Gilmore observed Sean playing his video game. He appeared to be very quiet, and didn’t response well to CM Gilmore.
“No.” She shook her head, pressing her lips tight as she looked across the table at me. “He didn’t like the food. He didn’t ask about me.”
When speaking to the counselor Sean admits that, he does not remember what happened last night or how he came to be at the hospital. He remembered being at the Sigma house and playing a drinking game around 10:00 pm and did not remember much after that. He even mentioned a story about drinking when he was in high school. Sean was very worried that his parents would find out and that they would make him come home. He seemed to be very nervous about not knowing whether his parents were called or not. Sean admitted to smoking marijuana before the party. He also stated that a friend gave him oxycontin.
When I returned home to Glendara, the authorities wanted me to identify Sean’s remains. They also asked that I look at the other body to see if I could recognize him.
Sean stated, "I got me a girlfriend on the first day" then Sean's aunt stated, "Sean got on the bus popping his collar about getting a girl on the first day."
“I’d see a cluster of kids and he was always just on the outside, because he never quite knew how to engage,” says Sean’s mom, Erin.
This helped him to get to Sean, and ask where the picture
One summer day getting off the school bus running home, excited about going outside; couldn’t wait to go play with my friends when I walked through the door and there was my Aunt Liz. Standing there with tears in her eyes, in extreme amount of pain. I was scared, didn’t know what to do or who to call. Do I called, Mom or 911? After calling my mother then 911, I knew I had to help my Aunt Liz, bring you into the world. No one around, no one to ask for help, only Liz and I. My panic turn into a brave teenager who needed to help her
On the evening of April 8, Sean received a phone call from Tim. Tim told him that he
“I’ve been looking for him,” she said, clutching her books. “I tried calling him yesterday, but he never
An ambulance came and carried out my mom. I didn’t know what was going on, so many questions running through my mind, what was wrong with her, was she going to be ok. I was scared, more scared then I had ever been. My sister Sheridan who was 8 asked me “what’s happening?” through tears. On that day a little piece of me began to change because if I let her see my fear that would not help anyone, and so even though I didn’t know what was happening I responded “everything is going to be ok” even though I did not trust my own words.
Introduction: In today’s society, serial killers have been glorified as these mysterious and interesting beings that cannot be understood or explained. Shows and documentaries about killers have been made to give an insight about their life that lead up to their killing spree. Psychologists conduct many studies and interviews trying to analyze the mind of serial killers and understand the process of committing such heinous crimes. Being that these people were able to kill a vast group of people during a time period before getting captured, it questions many aspects of their life and society.
Homicide always will be an aspect of life, whether it is in the 16th century, 21st century or in the future. At times of extreme stress, people may turn to murder as an outlet of a greater problem they cannot fix or control. Presently, homicide has a greater value in society due to popular culture references through the media such as television, film and writing; society constantly has homicide and murder in the subconscious. In David M. Buss’ findings in The Murderer Next Door: Why the Mind is Designed to Kill,
Guilt can sometimes take over your senses and cause you to make decisions that you would not normally make. It can quickly expose any crime committed just because your conscience knows what was done was wrong. Guilt can greatly affect one’s conscience and sometimes it can make that person unveil the truth, or a secret contained inside of themselves. The caretaker of an old man claims that he is not mad, even though he murdered an elderly man for having a “pale blue eye, with a film over it.” (Poe)
No humane person with any values is able to commit a heinous crime without some feeling of guilt or remorse afterwards. Slowly, this guilt festers and eats away at