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My First Mistake With Mental Illness

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Introduction Problem: 1. I was born. That was my first mistake. 2. I wasn’t a boy. Second mistake. My parents had resentment toward me before I was born. This set the tone for my early childhood. I also have a mental illness. I’m diagnosed with a mood disorder and ADHD. I am medicated for depression, bipolar, psychosis, and ADHD. My life has been interesting. My life has been a mess! My life has been complicated. Experiencing mental illness along with abuse and neglect has been almost a gift to me. It 's also been a major curse. I’ve learned a lot on my journey and I want to share it with others who may be afraid of the stigma. People don’t talk about it. we need to talk about it with more than just counselors. I gravitated toward places I would never else have seen or experienced. The raw feelings and emotion that I felt went from 0 to 100 quickly. I didn’t know how I may react to anything. One thing I’ve always said is if you don’t know whether you should do something or not it’s best to do nothing. How I wish I had taken my own advice more than once!! My impulsive ways have gotten me in trouble. I’ve been close to death too many times. I never saw the other side, though. It was just blank. Black. Heavy darkness. No Heaven no Hell. Is total darkness a separation from God that exists in some undiscovered Hell? Is there a purgatory and I landed on the brink of it? Do some of us sleep while others travel through the tunnel filled with love and light? The bolt dumped into

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