The eyeliner makes the dark circles less pronounced. The lip gloss hides the trembling. The ponytail conceals missing patches of hair. The Abercrombie sweater covers bruises. I might look at bit thinner, so everyone will ask about my new diet. My hair might not shine the way it used to, so the pink ribbon will distract curious eyes. One hour of preparation and I look like myself. One hour of preparation and no one will know. One hour out of 24. Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it, wasting a twenty-fourth of my day on a lie. But then I see my wispy hair and baggy eyes, and I have to do it. Checking my makeup one last time, I push my sleeves up, though not past my elbows. I slip on a cute pair of flats; heels are too dangerous with shaky legs; and grab my Hollister bag. Padding downstairs, I inhale the scent of waffles and syrup. I say morning, mom as usual.Then she normally replies like morning sweaty, did you sleep well. Of course I say I’ve been sleeping better than I have.She sighs, and her eyes look a hundred years old for a minute. Then she does one of those mom lines like, any improvement is enough. Of course.She made waffles and offered some, Then I say something like, “Thanks, Mom. Smells delicious.” I sit at the table and she hands me a plate. The thought of all that food turns my stomach, but I force a smile and thank my mother again. She busies herself at the sink and fills the silence with chatter. When she turns around, she takes in the waffles still on my
Dad gave me smile while gently rubbing my back and said "come on, let's have dinner" dad whisper chirpily and I nodded my head ceaseless with a grin.
“How about you go get your father, dinner will be soon.” as she carried the pan to the sink.
Before heading out the door, I look back and say, “ I will mom, don’t worry about me and always know that I love you more than
"Time to eat!" she yells. Following that, I bolt downstairs and head for the food. Once we all have our food we all sit around the table and my mom says " We have some exciting news!"
When we had gotten our food and sat down, my mom said “I need to talk to you two about
Coach Marian sighed and said, “Well, girls your mom is here. Have a good evening, and I’ll see you cupcakes
The school day is over and loosening up watching Netflix. My mom is rummaging around through the cabinet packing lunches for my siblings and I. Then she asks a simple question.
I slip on a long sleeve shirt, it hides the bruises. Sticking my right, then left foot into the holes of my now baggy jeans, I slide the jeans up to my waist and fish in my dresser for a belt. I use to never need a belt but due to my rapid weight loss, wearing a belt was my new found religion. Flipping my head over, I tie my lackluster, brown hair into a ponytail. That ponytail covers up the missing patches of hair. I debated on brushing my hair so it wouldn’t look as dull but decided not to since my fine hair ends up in brown clumps between the bristles of my brush. It takes a lot of time but I see my wispy hair and tired eyes. I know that I have to do it so people won’t ask questions. I know that’s what I have to do to maintain my reputation.
Sighing because I know that my Grandma wouldn’t quit until she got me to eat, I stood up. Walking out of the room, and into the hallway, I am immediately overwhelmed with the smell of my Grandma’s delicious soup. My mouth watered and I can literally taste the chicken and the green papaya on my tongue as the warm soup runs down my throat and into my
"Let's take a nap also maybe it will calm my stomach from the ferocity of starvation". My mom said grumbling. As they go to bed both of the have a uneasy feeling of lightheadedness but shake it off and go to sleep.
My mom has looked after us for my entire life, (literally). So, now that she's in this position, it's time for us to re-pay the favor. So, I've got to do what she did for me. I have to help her get lids off of containers, help her move to the bathroom if she needs it, and just like she did for me, figure out what the heck she's saying. It's not easy to tell what someone wants just by them telling you "afternoon, afternoon, breakfast, afternoon… aha!".
"Good morning", I find myself saying again. It's now about 6:20, and my manager is busy getting the register ready for
I am greeted with “Why didn’t you set your alarm?” and, “Are you at least ready/” I respond with “I am ready, just hungry” which completely summed up how I was feeling at that moment and time. If there was anything going right in that moment it would be that we had my absolutely favorite breakfast food in the freezer - Eggo Cinnamon Toast Waffles. Boy oh boy, those delicious, heavenly waffles can fix any situation in the world. I pop a couple of those blessings in the toaster to meet me after I finish messing with my bad case of bed head.
“You have to get past your mom,” I say. “She’s going to try and give you breakfast, but don’t let her. Find an excuse.”
“Thanks Mom, but you’re going to be late so go on to work and I will take care of everything.”