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Belonging In Celeste Ng's 'Everything I Never Told You'

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Ellie Follis Ms. Carpenter Honors English 9, Period 6 November 3, 2023 A Life in the Shadows As people change and grow, their identity and sense of belonging usually changes with them, unless of course they are part of the infamous Lee family in 1977. In Celeste Ng's novel Everything I Never Told You, a story of grief, identity, loss, and belonging is told through the perspective of the Lee family. The Lee family lives in Middlewood, a small Ohio town with a predominantly white population, James the father is a Chinese American while his wife Marylin is American. They have three children, Nathan the oldest, Lydia the middle child and favorite, and Hannah the youngest daughter, cast aside by her sister's spotlight. Celeste Ng utilizes the character …show more content…

When it is dinner time for the Lee family, it is always a family event. For Hannah to be forgotten from something that happens daily in the Lee family, a sense is given that the family recognizes her as their daughter but does not want to accept it. Hannah knows that her family does not remember her for such simple occasions, and that is hard for her, which destroys a healthy idea of belonging. She takes being forgotten as a sign that her place in the family is not to have one. From living in the attic with things waiting to be forgotten, to being forgotten for family meals, Hannah believes that her identity is to be quiet and lost in the shadows. In contrast to her early life, things get better for Hannah as time goes on and her family starts to see her as herself, not as the youngest child lost in Lydia's spotlight. This allows Hannah to start discovering who she is and how she belongs. After finding Hannah in the living room, Hannah and James experienced a special moment together, sharing laughter and love. This is expressed when, "Hannah giggles, and to James it sounds like the tinkling of a bell. A good sound for the …show more content…

However, now that Lydia is dead Hannah's parents, in this case James, are starting to finally see Hannah as not a girl lost in the shadows, but as a girl full of light and laughter. Hannah is obviously overjoyed with finally having time with her father, because she can finally talk, laugh, and cuddle with him, something she longs for. By gaining attention from James, it makes Hannah feel bold, like she can talk to him, and he will listen. As Hannah and her father have a moment together, her mother and Hannah also have one very similar moment right after. While Hannah is trying to slip upstairs so her parents can talk, Marilyn surprises Hannah by acknowledging her and not treating her like she is invisible. Hannah’s surprise is shown when, "Accustomed to being overlooked, she slides toward her mother, ready to slip by unnoticed. Then Marilyn touches a gentle hand to her shoulder, and Hannah's heels land on the floor with a surprised thump" (Ng 281). Always disappearing into the shadows to give her family space is something Hannah has become quite good at. By mentioning that Hannah herself starts expecting to slip by unnoticed, the author portrays Hannah as a ghost in her own

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