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Perfectionism As A Monster

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For the past couple of years, I’ve been dotting the i’s and crossing the t’s. It has grown on me. It already became an unstoppable monster; a monster that had eaten away most of my time; a monster that kept me from progressing; a monster that forced me to go an extra mile even though it was unnecessary; a monster that caused too much anxiety; a monster that almost destroyed me. It caused me to hold myself in high expectations. It whispers anxiety as I stare at a blank piece of paper, failing to progress because of my fear that it would be mediocre. Perfectionism, it is the name of my monster.

Being a wallflower has been my character. I lack self-confidence and the ability to socialize well. I was never good at lip service. Because of that, …show more content…

As you observe, you’ll always discover new things and learn a thing or two about them. Some might be unnecessary, and some might be useful and even crucial.
You tend to focus too much on details. Because you are a perfectionist, you want things to be clear and precise to the point that there would be no questions about it.
There would always be an inner judge or a panel inside your head. As you observe, you tend to look for mistakes and abnormalities. They’ll start talking as soon as you notice something incorrect. For instance, if you noticed someone does something incorrect, in your head, you have already humiliated him in front of everyone, criticized him, and have given your conclusion and recommendation to that specific person.
Others may find you weird for unintentionally staring at something or someone for a very long time. There are times where you or someone will notice that you are staring as if you are venturing in to the depths of nothingness. Others may accuse you for being a pervert or a weirdo so being alert is very important.
There will always be people who won’t like your attitude. Each of us have different perspectives and attitudes. You will always be judged by these people because of your

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