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Love Essay : The Love Of Love

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Today I am sitting in bed overthinking everything that has happened for the past year, for the 5th time this week. I don’t get why Anthony is still trying to get with me and after everything that’s happened between us you would think damn he hates her or just wow he’s finally over her. Well no he isn’t, he still “loves” me and at this point it’s exhausting being “loved” by someone that truly never cared. Young love sucks ass. It’s been so long and me and him are still fighting over the same stuff that happened a year ago. We fought everyday and night and it always just left me crying in the middle of the night while the words/phrases such as “This is all your fault/this is on you this time” and all the times he would apologize about something just ran through my mind a million times making me question what I did wrong for him to say all these things.
Before Anthony I was happy and carefree. I was convinced I wouldn't fall in love and get obsessed over someone ever again, especially him. I really never understood why Austin would always go back to me, maybe it was the fact that I was the first girl that has ever cared for him so much and the only way he could take that was to hurt me, cheat on me, say things that shouldn’t have been said. His so called “love” was so confusing because love is protecting someone from the pain and not causing it, you just don’t destroy the people you love. Anthony was capable to love me but he chose to be toxic. I was always available so I was

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