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| THE SUN was down, and twilight grey | |
| Filld half the air; but in the room, | |
| Whose curtain had been drawn all day, | |
| The twilight was a dusky gloom: | |
| Which seemd at first as still as death, | 5 |
| And void; but was indeed all rife | |
| With subtle thrills, the pulse and breath | |
| Of multitudinous lower life. | |
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| In their abrupt and headlong way | |
| Bewilderd flies for light had dashd | 10 |
| Against the curtain all the day, | |
| And now slept wintrily abashd, | |
| And nimble mice slept, wearied out | |
| With such a double nights uproar; | |
| But solid beetles crawld about | 15 |
| The chilly hearth and naked floor. | |
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| And so throughout the twilight hour | |
| That vaguely murmurous hush and rest | |
| There brooded; and beneath its power | |
| Life throbbing held its throbs supprest: | 20 |
| Until the thin-voiced mirror sighd, | |
| I am all blurrd with dust and damp, | |
| So long ago the clear day died, | |
| So long has gleamed nor fire nor lamp. | |
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| Whereon the curtain murmurd back, | 25 |
| Some change is on us, good or ill; | |
| Behind me and before is black | |
| As when those human things lie still: | |
| But I have seen the darkness grow | |
| As grows the daylight every morn; | 30 |
| Have felt out there long shine and glow, | |
| In here long chilly dusk forlorn. | |
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| The cupboard grumbled with a groan, | |
| Each new day worse starvation brings: | |
| Since he came here I have not known | 35 |
| Or sweets or cates or wholesome things: | |
| But now! a pinch of meal, a crust, | |
| Throughout the week is all I get. | |
| I am so empty; it is just | |
| As when they said we were to let. | 40 |
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| What is become, then, of our Man? | |
| The petulant old glass exclaimd; | |
| If all this time he slumber can, | |
| He really ought to be ashamed. | |
| I wish we had our Girl again, | 45 |
| So gay and busy, bright and fair: | |
| The girls are better than these men, | |
| Who only for their dull selves care. | |
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| It is so many hours ago | |
| The lamp and fire were both alight | 50 |
| I saw him pacing to and fro, | |
| Perturbing restlessly the night. | |
| His face was pale to give one fear, | |
| His eyes when lifted looked too bright; | |
| He mutterd; what, I could not hear: | 55 |
| Bad words though; something was not right. | |
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| The table said, He wrote so long | |
| That I grew weary of his weight; | |
| The pen kept up a cricket song, | |
| It ran and ran at such a rate: | 60 |
| And in the longer pauses he | |
| With both his folded arms downpressd | |
| And stared as one who does not see, | |
| Or sank his head upon his breast. | |
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| The fire-grate said, I am as cold | 65 |
| As if I never had a blaze; | |
| The few dead cinders here I hold, | |
| I held unburnd for days and days. | |
| Last night he made them flare; but still | |
| What good did all his writing do? | 70 |
| Among my ashes curl and thrill | |
| Thin ghosts of all those papers too. | |
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| The table answerd, Not quite all; | |
| He saved and folded up one sheet, | |
| And seald it fast, and let it fall; | 75 |
| And here it lies now white and neat. | |
| Whereon the letters whisper came, | |
| My writing is closed up too well; | |
| Outside there s not a single name, | |
| And who should read me I cant tell. | 80 |
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| The mirror sneerd with scornful spite, | |
| (That ancient crack which spoild her looks | |
| Had marrd her temper), Write and write! | |
| And read those stupid, worn-out books! | |
| That s all he does,read, write, and read, | 85 |
| And smoke that nasty pipe which stinks: | |
| He never takes the slightest heed | |
| How any of us feels or thinks. | |
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| But Lucy fifty times a day | |
| Would come and smile here in my face, | 90 |
| Adjust a tress that curld astray, | |
| Or tie a ribbon with more grace: | |
| She lookd so young and fresh and fair, | |
| She blushd with such a charming bloom, | |
| It did one good to see her there, | 95 |
| And brightend all things in the room. | |
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| She did not sit hours stark and dumb | |
| As pale as moonshine by the lamp; | |
| To lie in bed when day was come, | |
| And leave us curtaind chill and damp. | 100 |
| She slept away the dreary dark, | |
| And rose to greet the pleasant morn; | |
| And sang as gaily as a lark | |
| While busy as the flies sun-born. | |
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| And how she loved us every one; | 105 |
| And dusted this and mended that, | |
| With trills and laughs and freaks of fun, | |
| And tender scoldings in her chat! | |
| And then her bird, that sang as shrill | |
| As she sang sweet; her darling flowers | 110 |
| That grew there in the window-sill, | |
| Where she would sit at work for hours. | |
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| It was not much she ever wrote; | |
| Her fingers had good work to do; | |
| Say, once a week a pretty note; | 115 |
| And very long it took her too. | |
| And little more she read, I wis; | |
| Just now and then a pictured sheet, | |
| Besides those letters she would kiss | |
| And croon for hours, they were so sweet. | 120 |
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| She had her friends too, blithe young girls, | |
| Who whisperd, babbled, laughd, caressd, | |
| And rompd and danced with dancing curls, | |
| And gave our life a joyous zest. | |
| But with this dullard, glum and sour, | 125 |
| Not one of all his fellow-men | |
| Has ever passd a social hour; | |
| We might be in some wild beasts den. | |
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| This long tirade aroused the bed, | |
| Who spoke in deep and ponderous bass, | 130 |
| Befitting that calm life he led, | |
| As if firm-rooted in his place: | |
| In broad majestic bulk alone, | |
| As in thrice venerable age, | |
| He stood at once the royal throne, | 135 |
| The monarch, the experienced sage: | |
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| I know what is and what has been; | |
| Not anything to me comes strange, | |
| Who in so many years have seen | |
| And lived through every kind of change. | 140 |
| I know when men are good or bad, | |
| When well or ill, he slowly said; | |
| When sad or glad, when sane or mad, | |
| And when they sleep alive or dead. | |
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| At this last word of solemn lore | 145 |
| A tremor circled through the gloom, | |
| As if a crash upon the floor | |
| Had jarrd and shaken all the room: | |
| For nearly all the listening things | |
| Were old and worn, and knew what curse | 150 |
| Of violent change death often brings, | |
| From good to bad, from bad to worse; | |
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| They get to know each other well, | |
| To feel at home and settled down; | |
| Death bursts among them like a shell, | 155 |
| And strews them over all the town. | |
| The bed went on, This man who lies | |
| Upon me now is stark and cold; | |
| He will not any more arise, | |
| And do the things he did of old. | 160 |
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| But we shall have short peace or rest; | |
| For soon up here will come a rout, | |
| And nail him in a queer long chest, | |
| And carry him like luggage out. | |
| They will be muffled all in black, | 165 |
| And whisper much, and sigh and weep: | |
| But he will never more come back, | |
| And some one else in me must sleep. | |
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| Thereon a little phial shrilld, | |
| Here empty on the chair I lie: | 170 |
| I heard one say, as I was filld, | |
| With half of this a man would die. | |
| The man there drank me with slow breath, | |
| And murmurd, Thus ends barren strife: | |
| O sweeter, thou cold wine of death, | 175 |
| Than ever sweet warm wine of life! | |
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| One of my cousins long ago, | |
| A little thing, the mirror said, | |
| Was carried to a couch to show, | |
| Whether a man was really dead. | 180 |
| Two great improvements marked the case: | |
| He did not blur her with his breath, | |
| His many-wrinkled, twitching face | |
| Was smooth old ivory: verdict, Death. | |
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| It lay, the lowest thing there, lulld | 185 |
| Sweet-sleep-like in corruptions truce; | |
| The form whose purpose was annulld, | |
| While all the other shapes meant use. | |
| It lay, the he become now it, | |
| Unconscious of the deep disgrace, | 190 |
| Unanxious how its parts might flit | |
| Through what new forms in time and space. | |
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| It lay and preachd, as dumb things do, | |
| More powerfully than tongues can prate; | |
| Though life be torture through and through, | 195 |
| Man is but weak to plain of fate: | |
| The drear path crawls on drearier still | |
| To wounded feet and hopeless breast? | |
| Well, he can lie down when he will, | |
| And straight all ends in endless rest. | 200 |
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| And while the black night nothing saw, | |
| And till the cold morn came at last, | |
| That old bed held the room in awe | |
| With tales of its experience vast. | |
| It thrilld the gloom; it told such tales | 205 |
| Of human sorrows and delights, | |
| Of fever moans and infant wails, | |
| Of births and deaths and bridal nights. | |
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