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| ONE white hand droops across your knee; you stare | |
| Off into space with shadowy eyes that seem | |
| To watch a lone horizon dark with rain | |
| And cities ruinous and seas forlorn | |
Of sun and movement. Like a dead leaf stirs | 5 |
| That listless hand, and then grows still again, | |
| And round your chin, the soft and child-like chin | |
| As delicate as dew, a ghostly sigh | |
Hovers and then is gone. Serene and broad | |
| Your white brow is beneath its banded hair; | 10 |
| Serene the bosom that so softly breathes; | |
| Serene the milk-white throat that moves no more | |
| Than marble moves, the gently hollowed cheek; | |
| Serene, too, seems the body grown so still | |
| And drooping like a wing out-wearied by | 15 |
Too many homing seas. Ah, calm it seems, | |
| But at some mystic core a mystic fire | |
| Still burns, the ruby tumult of the blood | |
| Still leaves it perilous, still played upon | |
| By ghostly fingers from forgotten tombs! | 20 |
| Serene you seem to wait, yet round your eyes | |
| So blue with weariness, a trouble lurks; | |
| Behind the honeyed corners of your mouth | |
| Left tremulous with passion, wakes and stirs | |
| A protest. Close about the parted lips, | 25 |
| Rose-red and woman-weak and warm, | |
| Broods something over-tense, a wistfulness | |
| That has not been appeased, a hidden note | |
| Of hunger that has gone unsatisfied, | |
| A question tragical, a startled cry | 30 |
| Unanswered, and a thought that cannot sleep. | |
| Out of the gloom I see your white face yearn | |
| As silence yearns for music, or the sea | |
| For morning waits. A mirrored wonderment, | |
| A far-off glory, from you flashes and shines | 35 |
| And then is gone, as in a casement burns | |
| The sunset gold. And still you scarcely move, | |
| And speak no word, and passive droop the hands | |
| That in their listless movements stirred so like | |
| A little childs, and all the weariness | 40 |
| Of all the world seems weighing on your soul. | |
| Out of the ages gaze your brooding eyes, | |
| And barrier gulfs of time between us drift, | |
| And shadow-like you face the shadowy night | |
| Above earths sleeping hills, and converse hold | 45 |
With hidden things. And I watch desolate | |
| Beside you; I, who but an hour ago | |
| Seemed one with you in flesh and spirit, I | |
| Must sit alone and lonely see you mourn, | |
| And feel again still close some iron door | 50 |
| Between your soul and mine. For still you wait | |
| Half-wearily content with discontent, | |
| Still idle with unrest you idly watch. | |
| Calm with a fever that oer fiercely burns | |
| And saddened with a joy too keen to endure, | 55 |
| You stare off into space and say no word. | |
| But from those unassuaged and shadowy lips | |
| I catch some echo of the timeless quest. | |
| I hear your spirits whisper that all life | |
| Is nothing, that from sleep to sleep we move | 60 |
| And know not where we go, that through the dark | |
| Your groping hands seek something not of mist | |
| And moonlight, that amid the endless cold | |
| You crave some keen and momentary warmth, | |
| Some glory more than earthly glory ask, | 65 |
| The wine that reddens ocean foam where far | |
| To straining eyes the darkling waters reach, | |
| The wine that Twilight drinks from paling rose | |
| And leaf, the wine that tender April pours | |
| Across the morning world, the selfsame wine | 70 |
| That sends October singing down the hills | |
| And wakens in the sunburnt breast of youth | |
| The wonder and the lyric ache of love. | |
| For lifes last gift of rapture you cry out | |
| And will not be denied, for one great flash | 75 |
| Of splendor through earths glooms inglorious. | |
| Lone as a lute your pleading voice invokes | |
| Companionship, your luring body calls | |
| For secret consummations, for the kiss | |
| Enkindling, and the tangled joy and grief | 80 |
| Of having given much. You question not | |
| Times course uncomprehended. Childishly | |
| You yield yourself, and in return demand | |
| Only that you be taken. On the winds | |
| Of fire you make a bed wherein to rest. | 85 |
| Humbled and helpless on mans will you wait, | |
| The appointed vessel, and the lamp ordained, | |
| The hour predestined, and the dream fulfilled. | |
| As women give, you give, accepting naught | |
| But your own bosoms grim necessity | 90 |
| Of being crushed. Across the ghostly years, | |
| Where nothing may endure beyond the grave, | |
| You cry that love must last; you grow content | |
| With soft capitulation. Yet your hour | |
| Of wayward triumph knows the chill of tombs, | 95 |
| Your dusky-lidded eyes are dark with tears, | |
| Your softest words are saddened with the knell | |
Your own sad heart makes vocal. Then you cling | |
| To me and ask if Death could vanquish love, | |
| And cry that I must keep you for all time. | 100 |
| But pitiful it seems; for as you speak | |
| The shadow falls, the rapture melts away, | |
| The light upon the darkling sea-line fails, | |
| And soft as mist between your soul and mine | |
| The solemn wonder widens. So you sit | 105 |
| In astral silence, watching still for that | |
| Which never comes. In utter weariness | |
| You wait, with that last emptiness of soul | |
| Which leaves you shadowy-eyed and bowed with grief, | |
| Yet veiled in wayward beauty, creeping back | 110 |
And crowning you with wonder. Mystical | |
| You suddenly become, and mystical | |
| The thrice-sealed message and the woman-thirst | |
| That draws you passive to the shores of pain, | |
| That flings you broken from the seas of dream, | 115 |
| And in surrender causes you to reap! | |
| Enriched your body grows with ichors strange | |
| And of the gods you seem, and infinite | |
| You are, because of infinite desires: | |
| A something to be sought of land and sea, | 120 |
| And sheltered tenderly, and sorrowed for, | |
| And made the bearer of the final cruse. | |
| For desolate my soul cries out again | |
| And all your body with its crown of grief | |
| Wakes with an answering cry, and as you sit | 125 |
| With one white hand across your huddled knees | |
| My lips seek out your lips of mortal rose, | |
| And tremulous you yield, and from the pain | |
| Of utter sacrifice still garner joy. | |
| Then burns the flame anew; then glows once more | 130 |
| The momentary splendor; then the tide | |
| Sings back into its sea, and then the rose | |
| Is full, and all the throats of song are soft! | |
| But soon the voices fail, and soon we know | |
| How keenly fugitive the glimpse, how close | 135 |
| The shadow is, how bitter-sweet the end; | |
| And being mortal, how our mortal love | |
| Only on winds of fire may find relief, | |
| And from the rise and fall of passions tides | |
| Still catch at some forlorn tranquillity! | 140 |
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