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D.H. Lawrence (1885–1930).  Amores.  1916.
 
54. Snap-Dragon
 
 
SHE bade me follow to her garden, where
The mellow sunlight stood as in a cup
Between the old grey walls; I did not dare
To raise my face, I did not dare look up,
Lest her bright eyes like sparrows should fly in        5
My windows of discovery, and shrill “Sin.”
 
So with a downcast mien and laughing voice
I followed, followed the swing of her white dress
That rocked in a lilt along: I watched the poise
Of her feet as they flew for a space, then paused to press        10
The grass deep down with the royal burden of her:
And gladly I’d offered my breast to the tread of her.
 
“I like to see,” she said, and she crouched her down,
She sunk into my sight like a settling bird;
And her bosom couched in the confines of her gown        15
Like heavy birds at rest there, softly stirred
By her measured breaths: “I like to see,” said she,
“The snap-dragon put out his tongue at me.”
 
She laughed, she reached her hand out to the flower,
Closing its crimson throat. My own throat in her power        20
Strangled, my heart swelled up so full
As if it would burst its wine-skin in my throat,
Choke me in my own crimson. I watched her pull
The gorge of the gaping flower, till the blood did float
 
      Over my eyes, and I was blind—        25
    Her large brown hand stretched over
    The windows of my mind;
    And there in the dark I did discover
    Things I was out to find:
    My Grail, a brown bowl twined        30
    With swollen veins that met in the wrist,
    Under whose brown the amethyst
    I longed to taste. I longed to turn
    My heart’s red measure in her cup,
    I longed to feel my hot blood burn        35
    With the amethyst in her cup.
 
    Then suddenly she looked up,
    And I was blind in a tawny-gold day,
    Till she took her eyes away.
    So she came down from above        40
    And emptied my heart of love.
    So I held my heart aloft
    To the cuckoo that hung like a dove,
    And she settled soft.
 
      It seemed that I and the morning world        45
      Were pressed cup-shape to take this reiver
      Bird who was weary to have furled
      Her wings in us,
      As we were weary to receive her.
 
      This bird, this rich,        50
      Sumptuous central grain,
      This mutable witch,
      This one refrain,
      This laugh in the fight,
      This clot of night,        55
      This core of delight.
 
    She spoke, and I closed my eyes
    To shut hallucinations out.
    I echoed with surprise
    Hearing my mere lips shout        60
    The answer they did devise.
    Again I saw a brown bird hover
    Over the flowers at my feet;
    I felt a brown bird hover
    Over my heart, and sweet        65
    Its shadow lay on my heart.
    I thought I saw on the clover
    A brown bee pulling apart
    The closed flesh of the clover
    And burrowing in its heart.        70
 
    She moved her hand, and again
    I felt the brown bird cover
    My heart; and then
    The bird came down on my heart,
    As on a nest the rover        75
    Cuckoo comes, and shoves over
    The brim each careful part
    Of love, takes possession, and settles her down,
    With her wings and her feathers to drown
    The nest in a heat of love.        80
 
She turned her flushed face to me for the glint
Of a moment. “See,” she laughed, “if you also
Can make them yawn.” I put my hand to the dint
In the flower’s throat, and the flower gaped wide with woe.
She watched, she went of a sudden intensely still,        85
She watched my hand, to see what I would fulfil.
 
I pressed the wretched, throttled flower between
My fingers, till its head lay back, its fangs
Poised at her. Like a weapon my hand was white and keen,
And I held the choked flower-serpent in its pangs        90
Of mordant anguish, till she ceased to laugh,
Until her pride’s flag, smitten, cleaved down to the staff.
 
She hid her face, she murmured between her lips
The low word “Don’t.” I let the flower fall,
But held my hand afloat towards the slips        95
Of blossom she fingered, and my fingers all
Put forth to her: she did not move, nor I,
For my hand like a snake watched hers, that could not fly.
 
Then I laughed in the dark of my heart, I did exult
Like a sudden chuckling of music. I bade her eyes        100
Meet mine, I opened her helpless eyes to consult
Their fear, their shame, their joy that underlies
Defeat in such a battle. In the dark of her eyes
My heart was fierce to make her laughter rise.
 
Till her dark deeps shook with convulsive thrills, and the dark        105
Of her spirit wavered like water thrilled with light;
And my heart leaped up in longing to plunge its stark
Fervour within the pool of her twilight,
Within her spacious soul, to grope in delight.
 
And I do not care, though the large hands of revenge        110
Shall get my throat at last, shall get it soon,
If the joy that they are searching to avenge
Have risen red on my night as a harvest moon,
Which even death can only put out for me;
And death, I know, is better than not-to-be.        115
 

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